The month came and went. I had been very busy with my schoolwork lately. Things still go on as the way it should be, I put in all my effort to study, to forget. Everything passed so fast. And I realised that I have been left behind. Left betrayed, left with my trust abused, left in deep confusion and sorrow. With these mixed feelings inside my heart, it is hard to express my feelings just plainly with words. I have been questioning myself, reflecting over and over again. Blaming myself for being naive. I have tried very hard for these two years, giving my best, however things did not work out. I don't need the attention from you, but I just want you to know that I truthfully care for you deep down my heart. We are left with a broken bond. It is hard for me to give the trust again as what is left of me is a deep scar. There was a time where I gave myself a period to heal, but now, I have decided to give up. The pain that I have to bear makes me feel so tired. You never notice how much you hurt me because I have always been hiding my true feelings after all. Sometimes, I do really want to talk about it, but I never want you to be upset, that's why I have always stay quiet and be by your side. There is no point to ask any return. Because I have learnt how to let go.

When time goes by, I would be able to pick up myself, to get out of everything.


Starting to become a emo kid? Perhaps.